Sometimes I get this (wrong) impression of God as being indifferent.
I think in our culture it’s perceived as politically correct to be indifferent: this idea that I should ‘not care’ what other people do or believe as long as it isn’t hurting themselves, others, or most important, me. We don’t want to give people the idea we don’t like them or disagree with them, so we quietly disengage and live our own (lonely) lives.
Admittedly, sometimes disengaging is necessary instead of fighting unprofitable battles – but I can’t help but wonder if we (I) am more often too disengaged. If being indifferent is ‘not caring’ about other people – then we have a lack of truly caring for one another.
Truly caring can be exhausting and difficult, like disciplining your children or having the courage to (respectfully) tell a friend you believe the choices they are making are not good for them.
With God, I think I fear His indifference because it is often so hard to recognize how He is engaged in my life. Sometimes He feels very distant, and it becomes hard to believe He cares about what I have to tell him or ask Him.
And I think in order to truly care for others, I need to first let God care for me. He is not indifferent and cares for me, for us in a way I do not yet fully comprehend. What kind of care would I show people if I first let God overwhelm me with his care for me?
God, help us know You with clarity, that you care deeply for us and are engaged and with us in the details of our lives. Fill us with greater and deeper understanding of Your love and care for us that we would overflow with that love to others. “And this is my prayer: that your love may abound more and more in knowledge and depth of insight, so that you may be able to discern what is best and may be pure and blameless until the day of Christ…” Phillipians 1:9-10